Rune work: a few lines on Pertra reversed...

...a note from a previous journal seems relevant today:

Pertra (reversed)

Concentrate on your own life, your requirements for growth.

Don't focus on outcomes or on past achievements or you loose the "true present" - the only time in which self-change is realised.

GM posing with Toad…

…both unconcerned about each other.

I thought this was a particularly handsome toad.  Check its´ markings:

More work with my Dark Moon Altar…

…things on my altar tend to get moved around as I work with the energy I am experiencing, in an intuitive way.

Work in Progress on a Spell, Prosperity Oil and Scorpio Space Aroma from Starchild in Glastonbury.

Kali with Lady Nada, Aura Soma Quintessence.

Dr. Usui, Reiki Healing Requests envelope & Witches´ Protection Bottle

Porcelain doll represents healing the past: inner child relationship with my parents.  Also, protective owl guardians from Cornwall, my I-Ching box and magickal box.

A magickal working between my Rosalite and Green Quartz crystal to aid me with “balance” and “letting go”.  On a base of 8, inward pointing, single terminated quartz (8 for the Wheel of the Year and the Spider Woman), rests a coil of copper wire (Nathair, the Adder, representing Self).  On top of that is a broken spoon, blackened with candle soot, containing a drop of Prosperity Oil, a drop of Scorpio Space Aroma and a drop of Lady Nada Quintessence.  As well as being a potent magickal potion, the glossy oils against the sooty base, form an excellent Dark Mirror for scrying.

Dark Moon in Scorpio and Hekate Power is Rising…

 

this is where I want to be

this is where I´m needed

…Kate Bush, Never Be Mine: lyrics hitting right home.

I must NOT hold on - to a specific outcome.  This is a KEY.

Trust In The Plan

Hekate, Dark Moon in Scorpio and this Scorpion is flexing her tail ready for the sting.

A very strong magickal feeling in the air with the potential for very potent change.

This is why it is so important that I take control of the message from my previous post about being careful what  I  wish for!!!!!!!!! 

Floating, bumping noses… …illuminous

sings Syd Barrett in the background.  Everything becomes significant just for a moment and then I learn to follow the rhythm of

let go, let go, LET GO!!!

Klangstrhaller Projekt raising the tempto Tempo calling me back to what I was doing before the computer seduced me once again hahaha…

 

 

Mark Kermode on Dougal and the Blue Cat

Hekate Star - Hymn to Hekate, by Magin Rose

Where to from here?...

...or Be Careful What You Wish For!

Since Samhain I have been doing some serious thinking.  This has not been the manic monkey-mind style of unfocused thinking that is my usual style but really THINKING about what I want from the rest of my life.  I still cannot give an answer on that one, even though I can feel mySelf more in charge of my mind, rather than the other way around.  I forget that, just like my computer, my mind is a tool that has practical and useful purposes.  More often than not, my mind is in endless, egoistic and emotional turmoil, working against me, rather than for me.

I don't think I'm alone on that one!

Once, I wrote in my journal:

'"If I'm creating it all...

...WHY?"

This afternoon I experienced somewhat of a breakthrough moment.  I was sitting in the sun, deciding what my next move should be in the immediate sense, and where do I want to go from here in my life.  I realised that whatever action I took next, in the NOW, would make either a large or a small change to where I ended up in my life.  This is not rocket science and I have read similar advice in self help books for many years.  However, this time I felt the reality of this and saw very clearly that decisions I have pending will either make it more likely that I will stay where I am or, they will take me nearer to a move away from the quinta.

For example, purchasing a new washing machine, upgrading the plumbing and planting more trees are decisions that would increase the likelihood of me staying put; keeping in touch with friends who have offered to house-sit raises the chances of travel; upgrading the campervan and marketing our property are necessary steps if I want to move away and do something else.  Once a realisation like that becomes clear, there is no way I can go back to being a victim of circumstance.  I am creating it all and I must therefore be very careful that I do know WHY!

At the moment, I am looking around at the people I know best, and deciding whose life-style I most admire.  This is not because I intend to imitate someone else's life, but because I am currently so far out of touch with my true desires.  I need some pointers and some people provide better creative inspiration that others.  This brings me around to recommending a podcast that made me want to scream create, create, create'.  Do listen to the inspiring Mother Henna, talking with Jamie Ridler on Creative Living with Jamie.  Mother Henna managed to turn every woman's nightmare, the death of a baby, into creative expression that clearly permeates her whole life.  I was lifted by this podcast, which touched on many issues that are on my mind at the moment.  Thank you ladies for doing what you do and leaving signposts for others to follow your trail.

Mother Henna's website is here and her moving blog is here.  I've been following the work of Jamie Ridler for over a year, when I came across her explorations with the book "Wreck This Journal" by Keri Smith.  Here is her video that explains what that was about:

Jamie's Adventures through Wreck this Journal from Jamie Ridler on Vimeo.

I'm going to listen to the podcast again and probably again after that, until I start to convince myself that I too can have a creative life.  After all, I have been living away from the mainstream for over ten years now and I believe it's too late to turn my back on that.  I have to use what I have and create something wonderful from it - it's what the Goddess wants us all to do with our lives.